Thursday, June 26, 2014

Perspective - Since everyone is doing it.

I have this app on my phone that gives me snippets from my life a year at a time.
Tonight's snippet was from three years ago. And y'all it completely has me melting into tears.

" Local Peeps - I could use a grocery runner today or tomorrow. Staple run, shouldn't be too bad. Anyone up for it? :o)"

Just that quickly I'm transported back to the days, months, and year that I couldn't even go to the grocery store for myself. Many of you were the responders to those calls. I will never be able to tell you how much it still means to me. I still remember, vividly, every trip. I remember every person who came to the house to do laundry, clean my kitchen, clean my bathroom, or buy and put up groceries.
You kept me going that year when you checked in on me, called me, and just dropped by.
You are my people. And you were my lifeline.
No words can ever be enough.

Two years ago - June 12th - I had the surgery that changed my life forever. The next few months were a roller coaster.  And if you weren't with me back then just think - 3 major surgeries in 3 months. Countless ER visits. One major hospital stay - just a month before I walked down the aisle to say "I Do."

I think back over that year a lot these days because of how different things are.

These incredible days are a gift that I never though I would see back then... when this was my life every day:

Sometimes I still need to look back and remember her. I need to remember how much life has changed. I can walk up stairs. I can grocery shop! And last weekend I drove hours by myself to SIT for hours and listen without pain.  It's beyond incredible. It's miraculous.

So, when I start to doubt that God can do anything. I just need to remember the healing hand that got me to this place. Mobile. Married. Happy.
Life really is good no matter what does or does not come next.  :)


Tuesday, June 24, 2014

She's back and weirder than ever.

A big part of me just wants to quietly step completely away from the blog.  What's that you say? I haven't blogged in over six months? 
Well sure, there's that.  :)
It's not that I haven't had anything to say. It's not that I haven't wanted to say it.
It's that I haven't had the words.

Up until 2012 my life was pretty much a total open book. My stuff was your stuff. My thoughts were pretty much all spewed out there.  I'm a fairly open book.
Dating woes - you heard about them.
Weight loss surgery - you saw it here.
Depression struggle - check.

Enter marriage.  Now my stuff isn't only my stuff.  Suddenly huge chunks of life need to have a hedge. That's not a bad thing. It's a supremely good thing.  But I'm still working on figuring out my boundaries.

So there it is - my excuse for sporadic blogging followed by a 6 month hiatus.

Now let's get on with it shall we.  I'm going to try to do better.  Yes. You, my dear 6 readers, have heard that before.
But this time I'm going to get a little more intentional. I'm going to set myself some reminders and ask for some accountability.

Let's do this thing!

Right now I actually feel like I have a lot to say. God is starting to show some different paths. I plan on showing them to you too... all in good time.

For now I want to say "thank you" to my Launch Out people.  In two short days you and God wrecked my world.  And I'm still trying to recover.