One thing seems clear in this little internal fight I'm in.
I've stacked the deck against my self in a lot of ways.
One of the things that I have been intentional about over these last few months is at least paying attention to bad habits, thoughts, and actions.
But I haven't really stopped to do more than take note.
Introspection is good. But introspection that leads to no action leaves you stuck where you are, even if where you are is sick.
So today - something changes.
One of the things I really feel compelled to cut out as an influence in my life right now is some of the TV I watch... most of it actually.
Yes - I can hear the gasps of those of you who know me well.
But lately I'm realizing that a lot of my thoughts, when I hit down to their root, came from something I watched/saw/heard.
So for a while at least, I'm going to cut that puppy OFF. I need to change my influences maybe forever, maybe just for a while.
There may be other changes. There may be other cuts. We shall see.
I'm still baby stepping. Let's call this step two.