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My wealth is in the cross
There’s nothing more I want
Than just to know His love
My heart is set on Christ
And I will count all else as loss
The greatest of my crowns
Mean nothing to me now
For I counted up the cost
And all my wealth is in the cross
If you know me personally at all you know that 2016 has been full of startling loss. But as much as I probably over share on social media, the majority of people have no idea just how much loss we've actually faced. It's been a brutal year people. And it just keeps on dealing blows. I've joked multiple times, ok not joked... I've been deadly serious at being ready to run away from this year. I'm ready for the clean slate. I'm ready to put this one away and deal with it in the rear view.
But today as I sang the words "I will count all else as loss" I couldn't help but pause.
Do I really mean that?
If nothing else good happens...
If more loss comes...
If my hearts desire is now completely re-routed or destroyed..
Is my heart set on Christ?
When I count up the cost, where is my wealth?
Doctor's can only do so much for us. Miracles may come. But they may not come in the way I had set out. I have planned. I have a box that I want God to check/fill. This right here, God, this is what you must do for me. I've been like a stubborn toddler. This here and now God. This is what is acceptable.
But if my faith means anything, if God is the big God that I believe He is, He won't fit in my box.
And trying to force Him to is disastrous - for me. My plans break against loss. My plans cannot stand up to the whirlwind of life. My plans are fragile... fallible... selfish... s.m.a.l.l.
And I'm undone today. Because I have counted up the cost. Everything is loss.
There is NOTHING more I want. Then just to know His love.
Whatever else comes must come against the strength of that conviction.
Though He slay me,
I will hope in Him.
And when I stand in glory
My crowns before the Lord
Let this be my confession
My wealth is in the cross
